ROCK ::::me:::: HARD PLACE

weight update: 151 lbs


for most of my adult life, i've been in the upper 150's in weight. the peak being around 167 lbs in my cheap-beer drinking and glutton-fest known as my first disney internship in 2002. it was definitely fun, but heavy-breathing times. at one point in 2007, i gained 8 lbs over a 2 week period. needless to say, not one of my finer moments.

i haven't seen a scale display 149 in at least over 10 yrs....the closest being at my current 151, same as my wedding weight last april. i worked out heavily twice/day during that time for the prior 2 months, though i still was eating junk food and drinking alcohol more than occasionally. burning calories > intake calories. it's simple math when u really think about it. this time around is a little different. i'm on this meal plan to eat better while doing moderate exercise. vigorous 2-a-day workouts aren't practicle. and while i have been losing weight, i'm still waiting in anticipation to see the digital scale to read '149.5' at some freakin' point. the past 3 mornings, i've gotten up straight out of bed just to check and it's still the same old straight up 150. though my 'official' weight is 151 after breakfast and my liver cleanse, since that was how i weighed myself on day 1. everything should be fairy measured right?

well... i think the mental aspect of getting over (or under for this matter) that hump of the hellish 150 is killing me. i just NEED to see it, then maybe i can just move forward and start shedding more weight without great anticipation. i often wonder what my joyful and gay expression would be when i finally could hit that initial target. my overall goal prior to all out marathon training is still 10 lbs... so in the end i would need to be at 145, but for some reason, i think my scale has it out for me.

damn....i sound like an old, whining fat lady.

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